Well I’ve come up with a kinda sorta plan for my first couple of days in the UK and it goes like this….

I’ll crash at a hotel type place close to Heathrow for a night or probably two…

Then get to Kings Cross in London somehow….

Then have a nice leisurely 4 hour train ride up to Newcastle Airport where my Grandad will (hopefully) meet me there!

It’s a plan at this stage but as with most things in my life at the moment it is bound to change as my mood does haha

Oh and I haven’t managed to finalise a tattoo design yet so it’s kinda on the backburner for now….

Been feeling a bit out of sorts this week for some reason… I don’t know if it’s because I’m sick of the time dragging on before I leave NZ or it’s cos it’s nearing Xmas and I gotta work or wot but I just find myself feeling really blah or meh about everything.

Can’t find any motivation to get anything done… my flat needs a super-clean and my car needs a wash but I just cannot be bothered. 

Amelia’s back in town from the UK for her wedding this Sunday which is nice.  Good to catch up with her and her hens night was fun (even tho I was doing the sober thing!) I don’t really get on with a couple of her friends and while I wouldn’t dream of making it an issue on her special day I can’t speak for them – I just hope they don’t cause any dramas and have gotten over themselves considering it all happened years ago. But people can be asses like that… specially girls!

Oh well… life goes on… and it is doing that I spose but just not fast enough for me! In saying that tho I am shit scared about going away on my own

Tears as cabbie murder accused remanded 

I can’t believe this shit is happening in our society – what kind of kids are raised to think this is ok?  I mean 16 years old for fucks sake! He was probably brought up on X-box and Playstation where this violence is surrounding him and is seen to be acceptable…

Seems to me that half the time life in a prison is preferable to their actual home life – 3 square meals a day? free education? why wouldn’t you?

This poor guy came to New Zealand to escape the violence of his homeland and look what we do to him.

So I’ve been umming and ahhing over what I’m gonna get a tattoo of (2008 Xmas Prez from my bro John and his lovely GF Hayley!) and I was gonna go with a silver fern on my ankle…

But now I’m thinking I might go with some sort of wording around my ankle – representing the people who are important in my life ie. Dad, Mum, John and our dogs (past and present) Tosh, Serene and Bailey… I’m thinking a wee doggie pawprint and a love heart should fit in there somewhere too but it’s still in the drawing stages… any ideas lemme know!

Right today is one of those days where I am so totally over everything that I just wanna chuck a tanty and walk… I know it’s only cos it’s ‘that time of the month’ and my hormones are low but fuck it I just wanna be on that plane and actually moving forward! It feels like I’ve been treading water for the past few months, ever since I decided to go, and it’s getting really old really fast.  I’m really getting tired of all the questions….

Yes this is my impulsive side talking I know – Geez my parents are gonna love me when I get home in this mood….

Later from the Grumpy Bum xx

Ok so I had a bit of a revelation today – I realised that in the last two days two different people have called me impulsive!  It’s a funny thing because I never really thought of myself as impulsive but then when I think of the decisions I’ve made over the past couple of years it does kinda ring true…

- In 2003 I decided on short notice to go to England with my mum – this ended badly because I wasn’t ready for it and came home with mum a month later.

- For the next 3 years I stayed in the same job so no impulsiveness there but I have to say my resignation was given on impulse, but it was after a few months of working in a crap situation.  One day I just thought “Fuck it I just can’t work in this environment anymore” so once the person who caused the crap situation had gone for the day I let rip to the boss and resigned.  It was a good decision tho so that’s ok.

- In the next year I worked in one job for 6 months but that wasn’t going anywhere so I resigned and signed up with Haydn’s, where I’ve been for the last 21 months or so.

- Relationships are probably where I’ve been the most impulsive… all except one that is….when I think about it it’s the one where I SHOULD have been the most impulsive.  I stayed in my longest relationship of 3 years because I fought the impulse to get out because ultimately I was scared to be alone. Looking back now I just wanna open a can of whoop-ass on myself because I’m so much happier now I’m on my own.  I was just too scared to take the leap. That’s what I need to work on I think – when I get into a relationship I plan like 40 years ahead too quick.  Some say that’s a good thing but ultimately 9 times out of 10 I’ll be setting myself up for heartache.  It was someone at work who brought up my impulsive tendencies when it comes to relationships….

- But it was regarding my move to the UK that my mum mentioned it yesterday.  I was trying to decide how to get from Heathrow to Newcastle when I first arrive and mum thought I should hold off on planning anything until I get there.  The thing is I like having things sorted and planned as soon as the idea comes into my head…. I booked my flights to the UK within a week of deciding to go – perfect example! Sure it was a limited-time deal but still, I booked my flights in August when I wasn’t leaving until February!

Rambling I know but I was just lying on my bed with Bails and it got me thinking… and being the impulsive geek that I am I decided to blog it hahaha.

Oh and now I think about it – here’s a few other things I decided on impulse:- decided to buy a new car and bought one on the first day I went looking, decided to move to Adelaide after only meeting Alan once, booked the flights for it which I will lose $$ on, impulse buying is my biggest downfall and I now make myself walk away the first time and normally that works haha, when a Polytech class didn’t work out Amelia and I decided on another course within 2 days (which turned out to be a huge waste of time).

Anywho… that’s enough of the deep and meaningful from me but it’s obviously something I need to work on.

Laters people,

Mandy xx

Well I have this wedding coming up for my dear friend Amelia and her beau Mike so I was in need of some new threads to look suitably fabulous!  I went out shopping with Mum and found a nice dress that didn’t break the bank (specially cos Mum bought it as a Xmas present haha!)  Now everyone that knows me knows I’m not a ‘dress’ girl so for me to wear a dress is a rarity haha. But I have two weddings in the next month before I leave for the UK so I thought I best get something decent!!

P.S – it’s not me in the photo haha.

Well it may have taken a few years but he’s done it again!! My awesome dad has got himself another boat project!  Her name’s Deep Water or Wai Hohonu…. what a beaut!